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There she goes again / Chasing down my lane
Today Connie goes to kindergarten.
Our raging little girl. How quickly time passes. Sometimes she will give me a look, or say something that catches my attention and I swear she is 17. It feels a bit like she is already lost to us. I mean, today it is kindergarten. What’s the next day? Soon she’s closing her door more often than opening it, and she’s got this whole aspect of her life that I am not in control of anymore and there will be all of these people that she’s meeting and who are shaping her mind, except that I don’t know who they are; I won’t be Cool Dad anymore, I’ll just be Embarrassing Dad, and Raging Mom will be her Raging Enemy and we’re doing everything we can to not become those parents who hover all over her, but I’ll be all desperate for her love, and then she’s all moody and often times hating us but also needing us so so much, and now she’s got a cell phone and can’t stop texting long enough to eat dinner with the rest of the family, who really just wants to bask in her presence; here she’s going to prom and she’s got this killer dress and I’m just so proud that I can’t wipe this massive grin off my face even when I’m sleeping, and before I know it I’m hiding behind the house crying because she’s leaving us and going to college and I don’t want to drive her off with her princess backpack and Hello Kitty dorm sheets, and I’m all self conscious ’cause I know I’m gonna ball like a little girl in front of her and some boyfriend who is moving in on my territory with MY little girl, and he’s all, “don’t worry Man, I’ll take care of her,” and I just want to hate him but I can’t, ’cause he’s actually pretty charming; then she’s all, “Dad I’m getting married,” or “Dad, I’ve found the woman of my dreams,” and I’m so damn happy and excited, but I’m also dying a little inside because I just can’t accept that she’s going to kindergarten today.
How did the time go by so fast?
Song of the day: “She’s Leaving Home,” The Beatles.
Filed under: growing up | Tagged: daughters, kindergarten, milestones
I just put mine on the bus to start 3rd grade. I remember when she first started, and it seems so long ago.
Just try to squeeze as much out of every moment.
Damn, dude, you’re killing me here. I am just about 45 minutes from dropping off my firstborn child at her first day of high school, while my baby is going into the fourth grade.
It really, really does go that fast.
Great, as if the thought of this one day happening to me isn’t enough, you had to throw in one of the saddest Beatles songs ever!?
At least you have an excellent idea what to expect! This is right on.
What a lovely blog and a lovely post about your daughter Connie. Your post is so spot on. Nearly made me cry – but I’m not that soft surely. I think children soften you up though – don’t you think… You are more emotional that’s for sure.
I can only imagine. One – because my oldest is four and not going off to school yet. Two – because I only have boys. I imagine that being the father of a girl is a whole different ball game.
I just started my sophmore year of high school. My parents are always saying stuff like, “I can’t belive your finally (fill in the blank)” and “you’re growing up so fast!” I roll my eyes and shrug it off, but…I think I’m growing up fast too.
Thanks for the responses, everyone. Glad this post resonated with some of you. Connie is doing marvelously after her first week of school, and is excited every morning to go back. Our twin boys started preschool this week, so there has been a lot of change in the Raging House!
What an AMAZING COMMENT from M.O.O.F., above. Thanks so much for writing. Your parents must be very proud. -RD
This one had me crying – so sweet. And it is so great that she is loving school
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